It has been 6wks since last post, a long time... I was too busy? too tired? burn out? Nothing come to my mind? To focus on my job? Probably little mix of everything. But I feel something in my mind, something I want to shout it out from my mind now.
So... talking about chef, I mean food, cooking, eating... Everybody love it, well... I know some people hate or can't cook, but... But even though, doing for living, that means lots of time. If you work for union, say 40hrs per wk, still kinda lot hours. For fine-dining, depends on the kitchen, but 60-70hrs, some places 6 days a week and 80hrs. For regular people, guess it's insane, people can say that.
What drive people work those hours? Standing all day, sweating, burning, super physical athletic, got yelled, ass kicking. usually little break, cleaning, then starving as fuck! Have I ever thought walking out the kitchen, punch someone's faces, throwing the pans, just screaming with no mercy? Sure, more than 100 times or maybe 1000 times!!
Well... I did throwing pans, screaming, pushing someone... kinda things in past 10yrs, not so many times though...but... I did. I would say it's just extremely immature unprofessional act, no question about it. Do I regret? Absolutely, YES. It feel great momentaly but never forget and regret the rest of my lifetime. No matter whatever the situation and reason.
I'm quite chill person, I would say... But sure I get lost my control in the kitchen... say in the past. I see sometimes this way, I love cooking, cooking is fun. I know how to cook, I know what I want to cook. And do I wanna keep working crazy hours half of my time? Do something instead and why don't I just cook at home as I want. I god damn it know that working in the kitchen sure extremely frustrating stressful situation. Like:
No kitchen is perfect EVER
One universal kitchen rule: the only one person is right in the kitchen who is chef, NOT ME.
But yet the customer is ALWAYS right, no matter how wrong they are....
no matter how the service is crazy, but when it need it, it need it. JUST DO IT.
Shit happens in the kitchen all the time BUT JUST MAKE IT HAPPEN.
Chefs & Cooks could be the most EGOISTIC creatures in the world.
Never compromise, everything perfect, yet, the reality it's BUSINESS with the guests. Sad but the truth. One decision can ruin the entire service.
How many guests really recognize all the hard work we actually do? Unfortunately NOT MANY.
It sure looks super negative, but... that is the way I see it through 10 plus years and I say everything here is so truth. but yet.... I crave working in the kitchen.... kind crazy! .... If I choose one answer for that, I answer I work in the kitchen because of my "PASSION". It drives me, it make me alive. The adrenalin rushing I feel in the kitchen, I never can get anywhere else. the excitement, the vitality, the "fire" .... I just.... CAN'T GET ENOUGH....
Busy day tomorrow, get some rest and go back to "the sanctuary"...
Labels: My Passion
